I Wonder

I wonder if you think of me
I wonder if I cross your mind
Appearing when a memory is triggered.

I wonder if you regard me poorly
I wonder if you hate me
After all I did abandon you.

I wonder if you still like me
I wonder if you hold affection under your hate
Because you didn't want me to leave in the first place.

I wonder if you gossip about me
I wonder if you share all the secrets I told you
Either in vengeance or vain.

I wonder if you worry about me
I wonder if you still believe I'm wrong
You would never have accepted me anyways.

I wonder if you loved me
I wonder if you still do
Because I was lying to myself if I thought I loved you.